Hello, Joseph--and I can say that you are my human brother, but not in "Christ". BTW, did you not realize that that is a title and not a name? There are in fact thousands of "Christs" out there. I think you meant to refer to Jesus--but the Jesus you were most likely referring to is a myth--ahistorical--made up--not real. You may as well put your faith in the tooth fairy or the easter bunny; both are just as real as your Jesus.
You said: not all of my personal beliefs are in line with the church nor do I always understand why the Church teaches what it does. I also have doubts and feelings of rebellion against God and the Bible and the church.
Me--Doubts are good. With so much to doubt about any organized religion, much less one with the history of the Catholic Church. Start by investigating the history or your church (use neutral sources and not the official sources for such research). Your doubts will only increase.
You said: My issue is more with those who are constantly saying the Catholic Church is unbiblical.
Me--To which bible are you referring? There are literally thousands of them and they are all different. Actually, all churches are unbiblical, since none of they follow the bible totally. Not possible.
You said: I do not understand why God did alot of what he did in the Old Testament.
Me--Yes, hard to fathom. Keep researching that subject.
I do have my own personal views on abortion where in many cases I personally see abortion as the lesser of two evils. Yet I still consider it ussually an act of homicide. However I am a sinner and just because I don't understand something I don't declare that I am right and the church is wrong.
Most Catholics I know have struggled or continue to struggle very much with the views and decisions of the church Magisterium. I do not consider myself a good Catholic. I have much knowledge of apologetics but that doesn't mean I don't blaspheme or doubt my faith. In fact in these last two months my faith has suffered more than it has in the last 7 years.
You said: But either way I strongly believe that the Catholic Church will endure forever.
Me--Forever is a long time. It has lasted 2,000 years, more or less. But if human society can continue to to use reason and logic to solve problems, then the Catholic church will not endure. The history of atheism is relatively short--when it has 2000 years under its belt, I am sure churches will be a history that is read and chuckled at.