I don't like living. I don't like world. I don't like people. I don't like existing.
I do not want to exist anymore. I want to stop existing in any way, shape or form.
I want to NO LONGER EXIST. It's the ONLY thing that I want.
However some people say that it is impossible. And it kinda pisses me off.
I want to die but I fear that death is not the end. There might be some kind of set up like I might wake up in some another place where dying is in fact impossible. I don't like that.
So what is the likelihood that when I die I will no longer exist? There are many stupid people who say different versions of afterlife all of which I hate. I don't want any afterlife AT ALL.
Also I am not misanthrope or anything. If you like existing that's good for you. But I don't. I want this to end.
Also I have concern that different ways of dying give different chances of not existing. Which is kind of stupid but I seem to be concerned about it as well.
Anyway I want to stop existing. How do I reach that? All I have to do is die?
"I don't like people"
"Also I am not misanthrope"
You do know this is a contradiction don't you? The thought of suicide has got me through many a bad time. But why not be happy since your life will definitely end, and if it doesn't, be happy it didn't. I have had PTSD most of my life for multiple traumatic events and understand your wanting to be dead, but I finally got help and am taking medication that has really made all the difference. Get help, and try to think good thoughts and not bad ones. If it is a work, the world situation or the stupidity of mankind, or marriage that makes you want to die, then find an answer by quitting work after finding a job you like, ort get a divorce, and quit listening to the news and take a walk alone in the natural world and enjoy how beautiful it is, and just laugh at the stupid people and make fun of them and their nonsense. You have the will to live, use it, don't abuse it.
Also, if you think of things harmful to your body it will kick up anxiety and feelings of dread. The body reacts to your thoughts like they are real, if you control your thoughts and think of the good things in life it won't become a vicious circle of negative emotions like panic attacks that are a living hell. Smile, there is no hell after you are dead. Solitary