'Sup, Bob? I've been an atheist for a few years now. I was extremely devout in my late teens and early twenties. I was involved in more ministries (free labor) than I could count. But despite my devotion, God still felt distant to me. I was tired of living in a one-way relationship where I did all the work and he took all the credit. So I gave him an ultimatum. He could either give me an undeniable sign that he was there, and that he was listening, or I'd walk away. I didn't get a sign.
Must suck for you to be married into a religious family, where even your kids are Christian. I wonder what your kids will think when they outlive you. Would they honestly be able to justify God sending you to Hell for all of eternity, or will they realize that you're a good man, and that no just god would punish a good man with eternal torture just for not believing in the right religion?