There's a huge difference between a starving artist and a political waiter.. Back when I was starving we didn't have day jobs. Unemployment in the area was off the charts to the point that employers could really pick and choose from employees willing to work for starvation wages..not to say there was any such thing as an unscrupulous employer.. Oh wait..yes, yes there was so I packed up and left town. Turns out that unscrupulous employers are everywhere..
Between that and exposure to lots and lots of toxic crap that pretty much works on destroying the central nervous system.. Of course I can take a lot of blame for being dumb enough to trust certain employers that the chemicals I was working with were perfectly safe..
Ok, I can see that my excuses for dropping out of the art scene aren't really working..It could be I just lost interest at some point along the way and wasn't able to get it back when I wanted to.. I've tried, but the part of my brain that could translate what I see to my fingertips just wasn't there anymore.. It sucks when I think about it so I try to not think about it too much. The fun part is there is never a shortage of friends and family members telling me to get back to doing the things that I couldn't make a living with all those years ago.. There just isn't a huge market for artist created pornography.. lol