If God is like Morgan Freeman's version, he might as well not exist. All he does is fix lights, give super powers to random people, play pranks on the few people he directly communicates with, make excuses for not doing anything to help anyone, and telling other people to do his job. If God is just one of the bros he's not any more remarkable than any other bro. But then you think we're both demigods, so godship really isn't anything special in your view anyway.
Your definition of G-d ... like many others here ... "something that will make me crap my pants, like going over the top of the first tall rise in the roller coaster". Everyone defines things, for their own purpose. I don't dispute your choice of purpose, only your apparent lack of self awareness. You are aware of how much bull shit there is, but like almost everyone, you can't smell your own. And why should you?
I became aware, after many decades ... that I didn't have to accept anyone's definition for anything, not even the dictionaries. I found out that dictionary writers famously (at least for Voltaire) have agendas. Today with out totalitarian global society, it is a political agenda. Of course "pop culture" is a source of common meaning .. but we all know that our lives have turned into crappy reality TV, right?
With me it is a Zen thing. At first a mountain was just a mountain. Then a mountain was no longer a mountain. Eventually a mountain was just a mountain, but no longer the same mountain. As a theist humanist by choice, I have to ... have to define things in terms of humanity. And it has to be a humanity that isn't materialist. Materialist humanity satisfies the agenda of Capitalism and Communism. After many decades, I have rejected Winston Smith's fate.
In the course of my personal development, I didn't have to end up as a theist, or even Jewish. I have had lots of "alternative ending novella" choices to make, and I ain't done until I'm done. Your personal development is different (as it has to be). We are just chatting away, being the monkeys we are. There are so many people, and the choices we make are exponentially greater than the number of people at any given time, it is a wonder we can even chat at all.
For a naturalist, being in nature (minus tourists) is a wonder. i get that too. For me being among people, and being a person (I have yet to be a redwood tree) is a wonder. And yes ... people are irritating. I am a clam who won't clam up ... don't mind the pearl I am making here ;-) I choose to accept people as they are (with much effort) ... I project my irritation on G-d (like the patient does to Freud). Of course my G-d is going to be Jewish in that case ;-)
I find that a deeper atheism, comes from a deeper misanthropy. And I get the misanthropy, I have that condition too. Mine drives me to heresy, not atheism. One can make all the epistemological arguments one likes, and people love to argue. But it is mere shadow boxing. Unless I am a person, conversing with another person, not an agenda arguing with different agenda ... then I have run aground in the shallows.