I understand your frustration. For me, the church was my favorite place to be when I was a teenager. But after my parents forced me to go to a different church, then another, then another, I lost that love for going to church. While the first church felt like home, the environments of the other churches were much less inviting. The people weren't as kind, there wasn't as much opportunity to get involved, and any connections I built with other people were always short-term. After a while, church just became a chore. I went to church, I ate lunch, and I spent the rest of my day at work. I was getting absolutely nothing out of it.
But most importantly, the reason I stopped going to church was because of God. Over the years of church hopping, it became painfully obvious that God either didn't exist or he wasn't who I thought he was. He did not have my best interests in mind. He did not answer my prayers. I held on to my faith for as long as I could, because I felt that my relationship with God was the most important thing to me. But over time, I grew tired of God failing me time and time again. I decided that if God doesn't give a fuck about me, then I shouldn't give a fuck about him.
After my faith died, my eyes were opened, and I was able to see flaws in the Christian religion and the Bible that should have been obvious to me before. But because I was indoctrinated from a young age, I had faith goggles on that shaped the way I could think. Now, the only way to get me to return to Christianity is to take away my intelligence.